My new husband

Jim Brickman, I'm gonna marry you. You can't tell me a man that plays piano with such nimble fingers doesn't know what to do with his hands.

Plus, he isn't ugly!!!!

Oh wait, he's gay, isn't he?

Random Winding and Whining Thoughts

I was thinking about sports. I played ping pong last night and all I wanted to do was take one giant slug at the ball. I didn't care where it went, just as long as it went there fast. I thought, maybe I should get back into tennis. But you have to hit in confined areas and you can't just let go and swing there either. So I considered baseball, but even then, you have to hit it within the bounds of the foul lines. And you can't just stand there and think "I kicked that ball's ass"...you have to hurry and chase NO ONE around in a circle. Even golfing, you have to aim for a tiny little hole or in that general direction.

I realized that there really isn't a sport where you can just go all out and savor the moment. Everything requires control or aim and has guidelines for a specific goal.

Life is a lot like sports. People expect you to play and work within certain bounds and everything you do has some expected goal or outcome. Then, to be successful, you're confined to the boundaries of that goal. Acting outside of the box is rarely welcomed.

Why is success measured by how we work within certain confines?. It is never acceptable to really let loose and go a bit crazy. You're always aiming for something. They call it "goals", but since it doesn't get me what I want right now, I'm calling it an obstacle.

Biblically speaking, since the beginning of time, man and woman were given certain confines in which to live and function. For those not into the biblical origins, you still can't deny that society prefers to operate that way today. Why is it so essential that we have such restrictions and guidelines? From my job I know it just takes one moron to ruin crap for the rest of us. Is that what happened? Was Eve the first moron to ruin things for us? Why did it have to be a woman? If man has dominion...why wasn't he watching her more closely? :)

Arguments with myself

I recently got my hair done. Someone told me the highlights make me look younger. Am I at the age where I need to start trying to look younger? I always try at work to sound more mature and dress more sophisticated, and well...older. My 29th birthday is in 6 days. Am I officially getting old? Is now the time to start buying anti-wrinkle cream? Even worse...am I old enough to be called a spinster? Ugh...thank goodness I'm at least old enough to drown my sorrows in a bottle of wine.